Day 18 ... cha cha cha changeee

yesterday i ended up walking 2.6 miles on the treadmill. k brought my headphone extension and it worked perfectly. the only reason i only did 2.6 miles is because i ran out of time. i probably wouldn't have even done that much if my husband hadn't come home for lunch and did the dishes, picked up the house and started some laundry. yay! some days he amazes me.. most days he frustrates me. lol..

im trying to re-evaluate my calories. im eating well.. but still going over in calories. i don't have much room to cut anything out.. but have to rearrange them so i don't have so many carbs (damn banana).. and my fat count is lower. i wonder if that's why my scale weight is being a bitch. i was up again today to 180. that %$#@& number just keeps haunting me. i bounced around it all last week. i know that 5.5 pounds in two weeks is good.. but im used to seeing a huge drop the first couple weeks.. like 7ish and then a 3 or 4 the third. from there i stay at about 2 per week. anyway.. im going to play with some food ideas.. change some things around.. etc. i don't want to take my carbs out from the morning because i REALLY need then for when i workout. i hate feeling dizzy or hungry when im doing a video or walking. its annoying and usually is a good excuse to stop. i will figure this out..

today is a short day at the coffee shop. i close up at 11am.. then i am off to the grocery store then home. i am craving something different today.. maybe turbo jam or something. might walk 2 miles on the treadmill.. then do a video. i need a change up..

that's all i have for now... happy HUMP day!

** UPDATE! i ran a freakin mile! yeah.. ME.. *I* ran!! ok.. well i JOGGED and it was a 12 minute mile.. but still! OMG you have no idea how unbelievable that is! im going to start from there and build up. it may take me a while.. but i DID NOT DIE.. so i know i can do more!! YAY! that was the best feeling i have had in FOREVERRRR! i loveeeee NSVs! :D

Day 17.. i really dislike Tuesdays...

yesterday i got a good walk in again... 5 miles. the only sucky thing about it is that my wireless headphones bugged out and are not working right now. grrr. i watch movies while i walk.. so that is my SAVIOR. without those.. i wouldn't be able to do it. i tried to unplug the device and listen to the movie turned all the way up.. but my ghetto treadmill squeals so badly that i cant even hear what people are saying. it was frustrating to say the least. i have a friend going to town today (town is where we buy everything - it has actual store - and is 30 miles away).. so she is gong to look for an extension cord so i can plug headphones directly into the TV. i think my sweat is what killed my other ones.they are big and when i am finished.. my when i a finished.. my whole face is soaked - including the big 'ol headphones. i think i fried them out with sweat... lol.

eating went good yesterday. i went over by 30 calories. i think it was the second string cheese i ate. i love cheese. my favorite thing to eat in the world is cheapo quesadilla. ooie gooie melted cheese between two tortillas.. cut into triangles. mmmm. so this past weekend.. i found some multi grain low carb tortillas.. and i take my string cheese apart.. lay it on ONE tortilla folded in half.. then melt it in the microwave. mmmm... not like my old one but still only 150 calories.. low in fat and low in carbs. helps me with my cravings.. so i don't feel like im restricting myself so much.

today i work through lunch.. its soup day here at my coffee shop. im serving sausage gumbo (smells so freakin good too). i get finished at 1pm.. home by 1:20 hopefully.. then i hope to get some sort of workout in. im going to do a video. depending on how much time i dink around.. i want to do a turbo jam or if i run short on time.. a 20 minute cardio blast. one of my kids gets out from school early today. so i have to hit the schools starting at 2:50pm. crap.. i also have to go by the bank today too. see? this is why tuesdays suck. i have so much to do at home.. my house is a wreck. i have my favorite shows on tonight.. so i want to get it all done before 7 .. including kids homework, dinner, kids bathed, kitchen cleaned after dinner, and whatever else calls my name.

now.. i need to go eat before i dive in this crockpot of gumbo. i have a banana and my healthy quesadilla and cheese thingie calling my name..

Day 16.. Weigh-In Day..

179.5 .. not too shabby. i did have my big beginning drop this week.. the week after TOM left. guess starting to exercise and eat right on the same week as TOM is here.. not good when you are looking for results right away.

ate perfectly this weekend. i didn't get any real workouts in.. but my body really needed the rest. i worked the shit out of it last week. my legs are still a little sore.. but not in pain anymore. i close the coffee shop at 11 this morning so i plan to get a good workout in from noon till 2pm. i have a little running around to do right after work and some laundry to get organized and started when i get home.. so i gotta move my booty.

the weekend was uneventful. i did manage to get some grocery shopping done. yay me! i have a shelf in the fridge that is MINE. i already threatened the family. if they touch it i will kill them. :) lovingly of course. i have passed up a LOT of temptation.. and im super proud of myself for that. the husband even passed up a lot this weekend too. im super proud of that as well. since i have been tracking calories.. we have been talking a LOT about calories in vs. calories out. hes slowly catching on.. now im waiting for him to start being serious. if i continue to lose.. he will jump on board for sure. like me, he is a competitive person.. so he wont like to see me keep dropping and working out.. while he gorges and sits on the couch. he will soon be doing something too.

went to my moms to get some of her fat clothes. ugg. her fat clothes are now my skinny clothes. she has lost 100lbs on that fancy protein diet. im so proud of her too. she has been doing it 7 or 8 months now and has not cheated one time. not once. it shows! she is smaller than me for the first time in 15 years i think. talk about motivating! i gotta catch up for sure. i SHOULD have started in october.. but my mind wasn't into it yet. i truly believe that you have to be FULLY committed when you start this journey. i know i have to be. im an all or nothing kind of person. but that's me. because of this.. im also impatient.. and that's a killer some times.

anyway... here's to a new week!

Day 13 .. Friday The 13th! .. WHOOT!

i meant to post yesterday but it was a crazy afternoon. i worked until 1pm. had to run a million errands after i closed the coffee shop.. then booked it home to work out before i had to pick up kids from school. i decided to do the walking away the pounds video.. my newest one. i was shooting for 5 miles.. but only did 4 of them before running out of time. i thought the workout would be a little less strain on my already soar legs. BOY was i wrong! Leslie kicked my ass! hopefully she burned some calories  and fat off of my ass while she was kicking it!

i loved the workout and was breathing harder than when im on my treadmill. it was awesome. the resistance bands were just enough to about kill me.. but still doable. im going to start doing more videos just to mix things up a bit. probably on my busier days.. tuesdays and thursdays for sure.. and maybe throw a short one in on my less busy days that i walk on the treadmill. you should see my video collection. its pathetic really. i have probably 30 or 40 videos .. at least. from turbo jam to tae bo... ALL of the WATP.. and then a bunch of sculpting videos... plus some hip hop somethings. oh yeah.. and i cant forget the yoga and palates for dummies. lol. those sucked and i am NOT good at that at all.. even the dummy version.

im going to try not to talk too much about the body buggg (after this post). some.. but not so much that all i see is body buggg posts. lol.. im in love with it... borderline obsessed. i like tracking what i eat and comparing it to REAL calories burned throughout the whole day. i can see my deficit daily.. and know that if i haven't gotten enough exercise in to meet my goal.. i can do something more at night.. like jog on my trampoline. its awesome. i cant get over it. the ONLY problem i have encountered is that i cant wear it at night. you can wear it while you sleep and it will tell you how restless you are. i am apparently NOT restless, however... it rubs a spot on my arm and turns it into almost a rug burn of sorts. i took it off last night when i went to bed.. and put it back on first thing this morning. that works for me.

so today's plan after i close at 11am.. is to go home and get my workout in early.. get the house cleaned.. maybe do a quickie video (depending how many miles i can survive on the treadmill).. get the kids from school.. finish cleaning the house - especially getting some fricken laundry done.. make dinner.. and then come back up here and work tonight. bleh @ that. its my night to work the bar. i hope we aren't dead. i need to be super busy so i don't get bored or tired. ugg. its going to be really busy tomorrow though, so i don't know what to expect tonight. the denver broncos play tomorrow night.. and where we live.. its a HUGE rivalry between the chiefs and broncos. since the broncos made it to the playoffs and my brother and i are lifetime broncos fans.. a lot of people will be up here at the bar watching the game tomorrow night. YAY! i need the business. this week has been dead at the coffee shop.. hopefully the bar can make up for it.

on a side note.. i have had a couple people inquire about buying the bar this week. not sure if i mentioned it.. but im trying to sell it. i need to get out of it.. so we can get out of debt.. sell the house and move back to the city. ANY city. im so fkn tired of small town living. im a city girl. even though this is my hometown.. i hate it here. i want to go back to a place where no one knows me (but my friends).. and no one cares when i took a shit last. seriously. im done with small town living.

on that note.. i better get some shiz done around here...

toodles for now...

Day 11 .. habits are forming..

im looking forward to my workouts now. like.. thinking about it all morning and everything. *smacks head* so THIS is what its like to form a habit.. a GOOD habit. wow.. who woulda thunk it.

my bodybuggg came in the mail today! YAY! i got it registered and everything. im so excited! yeah, it takes very little to get me excited. when i logged on to the site.. i noticed that they had them on sale (just for January i think) for $129.99. if you are thinking about getting one.. NOW would be a good time to get one. it comes with 6 months of the online program too. i bought mine on Amaz0n for $179.. which was also a good deal. i had to because i was using Amaz0n gift certificates. normally these run about $200. regardless... im in loveeeee with it already.

on the shittiie side of the day.. we found out that our piece of shit explorer is going to cost us almost $600 to fix. my husband is the MOST impatient person (and sometimes overly dramatic) and would not wait for this other guy to fix it.. so he took it to a name brand rip-off place. grr. i was so sick of arguing.. i gave up and said just feckn DO IT! oh and as if THAT wasn't irritating enough.. MR. NON-PLANNER himself told them to go ahead and start it todayyyy. the parts wont be in until tomorrow.. so yeah.. tear it apart TODAY. im like.. uh.. how are you getting home? well you can just come get me. THIRTY MILES AWAY with my other piece of shit car that dies all the time. lol. yeah ok. so how are you going to get to work in the morning. what? you didn't THINK about that did you? ahhh hell.. just rent a car for a day. whats another $75?? we have a charge card that's not maxed out completely.. we should be able to squeeze that last little limit out.. so now we have FOUR cards maxed out. YIPPEEEEE! oh.. did i mention that it needs new front brakes and rotors? yeah.. that too. no more room on credit card = wait until they smoke or the tires fall off taxes come back.

yep.. im living the american dream.

if nothing else.. i will just keep exercising and losing weight so i can look good doing it.. RAWR!

Day 10 ..a better day..

feeling less poopy today. i got on the scale this morning and saw 181. thank goodness i didn't throw in the towel after seeing a one pound drop. K was right. TOM went away.. i jumped on the treadmill yesterday and did my 5 miles again. it felt awesome. i decided to ignore the scale.. however, we now know that didn't last long. lol. my jeans fit this morning too.. that's the best NSV there is. i still have this nasty muffin top.. but its not as noticeable this week. the bloating is gone sooo that helps. my legs are feeling REALLY good.

one thing i hate about my body.. my build. i have VERY muscular legs.. like a runner would have. my legs - especially my calves and quads are never an issue for me. when i start walking or working out.. muscle pops out immediately. most of my weight drops from there first. that kinda sucks since i carry most of my weight around my stomach and chest.

patience.. and perseverance..

next week im thinking about starting the couch to 5k. maybe doing it on tues- thurs- and saturdays. i need to find a more fitting workout for those days since i have less time. like today for instance, i work until 1pm.. and IF i can get cleaned up before 1 and be out the door by 1:15.. i might be able to get in a decent workout before i go get the kids. i have found that evenings don't work for me.. and mornings.. haha.. that's a joke unless i get up at 5am. yeah, my workouts will get more and more necessary.. but so is my sleep. so that's out of the question.

i just have to find a way to make it work. and i will..

im more determined than ever...

i WILL hit 170 by the end of January..

Day 9 .. Weigh-In Day

one pound. 184.5. seriously?

a full week of eating well... NO SODA.. getting exercise in as much as i can (ok.. could have done more).. and i only drop ONE stinkin pound. grrr

my friend K said that as soon as TOM is gone, i may see a big drop. i have maybe one more day left. i hope so.

that's why i cant wait to get my bodybugg. i need to know where i'm going wrong when it comes to my food. i may not be eating enough. so frustrating! at least it will tell me what i am REALLY getting burned (not the goofy treadmill number).. then compare it to my daily calories.. and tell me what i need to increase or decrease. at least that's what i hope it will do.

my weekend sucked, on the personal side. i'm not going to get into that now.. mostly because it will get me irritated again and i don't want that. the day isn't going so bad.. so i will try and keep it that way. i wonder what kind of impact stress has on weight loss...

no looking back... on to the new week....